| sick of you |
[Feb. 2nd, 2005|12:42 am] |
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if you dont give a shit then why talk to me? i mean really? im tired of trying... i give up on everything, fuck it. i dont care anymore.. im tired of being the nice and sweet one.. thats all i ever do and no one gives a shit.. so fuck it.. if i apologize to you.. you could atleast acknowledge that you heard me.. if i try to plan to see you.. you could either say no i dont want to see you or actually see me when you say you will.. im tired of this bullshit.. the funny thing is, im going to college in a few months and more than likely.. none of you will notice that im not here.. its fucked up when you think you have friends and you dont.. if i didnt already know i was going to college.. then i would be dead... but since i know i have some kind of future and i can make something of it if i want... then im staying alive for now.. so fuck this shit.. im sick of it |
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| lonely feeling again.. why wont it end? |
[Jan. 30th, 2005|01:16 am] |
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idk... im tired of always acting happy when im not.. im not happy.. why fake it? loneliness can only build up so much until it all comes crashing down... and i think ive hit rock bottom.. im tired of this unhappy ending.. the story of my life always ends like some horror film.. no suspense you know whats gonna happen.. and again nothing good will happen to me.. sick.. sick of being tired.. tired of being sick... smash me in the ground.. shove my face in the dirt.. bitter lonliness and a ghostly empty heart |
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| ice is close enough to snow |
[Jan. 29th, 2005|12:04 am] |
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| | spankadelic | ] |
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| | anything TBS | ] |
whoop itd might have just iced in georgia... about hot damn time.. it aint snow but its good enough for now.. last night and today was mighty fun... last night i built a fire in my yard which was awesome then today i went sleding on the icy roads of my neighborhood.. great fun.. and like just now i found out that im jessie's bestest friend... well hot damn aint that awesome? yea it is...
jessie just kicks ass people... please believe.. |
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| eh.. |
[Jan. 11th, 2005|09:43 pm] |
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| | you die | ] |
| [ | music |
| | you die | ] |
yea i just dont care anymore... im tired of trying when others dont.. you like someone else.. and you just ignore me.. and damnit i miss stephanie.. im tired of this loneliness it only builds up hate.. my day sucked.. like always.. school sucks and then i sit here lonely.. damnit fuck this shit.. fuck it all i quit |
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| boring day.. |
[Jan. 10th, 2005|10:52 pm] |
well yea.. school is boring... we all know that.. the only part i like is talking to all my friends but you know its still gay. lets see.. soccer was gay and hard for me cause im not good at the long distance running stuff.. yea then i had the football banquet to go to... which was normal.. cause i suck and its always the same thing for me.. yea so a real boring day
yea i really want a g/f im tired of being single.. its getting gay.. i mean it was fun i had some awesome fucking times.. but i want the same person there everyday caring about me.. i really wish that this one girl would fall for me.. but i dont think itll happen..i just dont understand it anymore.. oh well i give up on her.. im tired of liking someone and them not like me.. i want someone to like me and want me and go after me this time.. but w/e |
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| sacraficial pandas... |
[Jan. 9th, 2005|05:40 pm] |
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| |  fucking C'd up | ] |
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| | what it is hoe | ] |
im straight up gansta boo ... and listen here im a grown ass man ... too fucking funny.. yea yesterday i went to harrisons and hung out with him and john and tony.. we played video games and watched "Shaun of the Dead" which was funny.. and we built a fire and roasted marshmellows and made smores and shit cause we are cetified C-unit ganstas.. but yea.. we sacraficed a stuffed panda to the fire god which was awesome.. i got pics on myspace check them out and comment.. but yea it was crazy.. had a blast.. but yea all i got to say is.. watch out cause C-unit will run the train on you and you wont believe.. peace out niglets..
Josh |
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| lost love |
[Jan. 8th, 2005|12:49 am] |
yea went to school again.. same shit.. but its friday so im happy.. well its saturday right now but it was just friday.... today was boring until tonight.. i went to see White Noise with Nikki.. yea its been a long time since ive hung out with her.. but yea i conjured up enough courage to hang out with her as friends and i had fun.. its hard though... the more i think about her the more i think about her and her b/f and how, im gonna loose her forever to him.. but ill be there that day balling my eyes out watching my first love marry someone else.. but yea.. for the first time i think i can say that im ready to let her go.. my love will never fade .. please know that..
jessie... im here if you need anything.. you are truly amazing and i hope everything works out for you..
... God i just want a sign.. some sign to tell me where to go.. |
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| woo hoo |
[Jan. 6th, 2005|10:49 pm] |
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| |  lonely | ] |
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| | papa roach- scars | ] |
man its been a while since ive done this but.. here it goes...
school is gay of course.. but its not too bad.. as soon as it ends though.. everyone gets so much happier.. just the ride from ng to my house is fun but today.. i had to get gas so i went to QT which is close to my house... and me, matt, graham, and brant all got some slushies... man a 52 oz slushie can give some hot damn brain freeze so watch out.. but yea we got those and then came home.. and of course this is where i end up... the place i reside every night.. but still.. yea.. |
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